Man! I havent been writing for the past month eh!!! Didnt realize that time past by so fast.... Where have i been?? Around!  Been a lil busy at work.. and plus i need to "pak tor" ahahahhaha what to do eh! Everything is normal and going on fine... The only thing that bugs me is that time past by too fast... Come to think of it.. I've been back to KL for more than 8 months now.. Been working for the past eigh months.. Dated my current girlfren for more than 6 months now! phew... time do flies!! sigh.. To put it in another way... I guess i'm enjoying life ..

Oh yeah for those who doesnt know.. I had my birthday last friday da 20th.. I've been partying since thursday night till sunday morning before i can have a good rest ahhahah That's why i slept through the afternoon today haahha.. It's not like a birthdDAY... more like a birthWEEKEND! Celebrated the whole weekend! Started off in Zouk's Ghetto nite!! There was this DJ from the states DJ CASH MONEY! He was great...!! Spinned a lot great songs that night... Then friday was of course given to my girlfren and me alone! Had a simple dinner and went karaoke ! OKie i dont sing... ! I just basically sit there and listen ahahhah and plus reading the newspaper ( okie i know i'm weird)..  and last night i had a party in Budaba! I didnt really want to have huge party but a lot of people turned up last night... and for the first time in my life I have two cakes... ermm no actually i had one and a half... coz the other half i'm sharing it with a close friend of mine coz his bday is on the 23rd!  And of course what else.. i got thrashed! Come on.. 4 bottles of black labels and tonnes of beers...  what do you expect.. I had to dance to get the alchohol off!! puked once in the restroom ahhahahha  The night ended around 3 plus in the morning and i had to take a cab back to the hotel... Oh yeah.. my girl booked a room in Concorde.. Man!! the room is nice!! Premier room man!! ahhahaha Thanks baby!! You knew what i want!! muaks! Woke up late this afternoon and went home.. and i slept through the afternoon! God damm tired!! sigh.. but that's all about it for my bday..  But i really want to thanks to those who came eh!! You made my birthday a memorable one!!

So as for me.. I think i will rest well this week! Been partying too much lately...Time to get some good rest...  ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzz

Have a good week guys!!  Latz!

"Sometimes your words still linger in my ears. I cant help it coz it hurt me so bad. It hurt becoz it was YOU who said those words.

I'm alright! I'm able to take those pain you gave me. All i had to do is to hold on to my wounds till it heals.You dont have to say sorry or feel guilty coz my LOVE for you is much greater than all the pain you gave me.

I love you!"

It's 11:15 pm right now.. In 45 mins its going to be my baby's bday.. We had a wonderful birthday party for her in Budaba yesterday night. I think she was really happy how everything turned out. Why i'm here and not counting down for my baby's bday? Long story. Some stupid incident forced me to come home early. At least she's out with some of her friends to countdown with her.As for me, it was really heart aching for not being able to spend the actual birthday with my baby. Hurt so much it nearly made me cry.. ok I do cry! In someway i felt myself failed to be the best boyfriend for her. I cant be there to spend her birthday with her. I have to call her later at 12 midnight to wish her a happy bday. What's the point of it when i cant be there physically... She said she's be happy enough to get that call.. It's not like i dont want to call.. but i wanna do more than just calling.. I wanna be there to wish her and hug her and kiss her..... Something that i failed to do to her this year.... what an heart ache... i think it will be aching for the whole night... i wonder how the hell am i going to be able to get to bed like this.... 

Anyway, i think i should have a birthday wishes for her here..:

" Baby, sorry that i cant be there for you... You have no idea how much i want to be by yourside during the countdown for your birthday. Somehow i felt i failed in someway as your boyfriend. And i have no idea how i would be able to make it up to you. Eventhough i'm not there... I hope that you'll feel that i'm there by your side hugging you and kissing you wishing you a happy birthday.... I love you baby... May all your birthday wishes come true! "

Your truly,

Kevin

Currently Playing Confessions By Usher see related

- Confession Pt.2

PUBLIC NOTICE:

Cheryljohn is organizing a xangan get together this coming weekend.... EVERYONE is welcome!!! But she did say NO PARENTS ahahahahhaha Aight guys... Anyone from around kay ell or nearby can come by and chill and meet some new friends... who knows you might meet da ONE! =) *wink* Neway the venue is still in planning.... Not sure where yet but it will be held this coming Sat. July 3rd....  I'll keep you guys updated... drop me a hola is you are interested.....

Aight i'm out for now!

Currently Playing J.E. Heartbreak By Jagged Edge see related

- Promise -

Lesson :

When you tend to care too much, the only person you will really hurt is yourself!

That's what i learned tonight!

nite....